This is my hand.
My other one is trying real hard to look like this.
They’re not particularly pretty at the moment, but they help me make beautiful things.
I never had eczema as a child.
It’s only shown up within the last 3 years. I’m starting to get used to it. Except when it jumps from one hand to the other.
And it’s still hell when I try to cook and I have a flare up.
Let me explain: a fundamental part of cooking is washing your hands. Washing my hands gets painful after a while even when I’m not cooking. I’m capable of washing my hands 7-10 times while I cook depending on if I have to handle raw meat or knead dough with my bare hands. You can’t avoid getting messy. I’ve used cotton gloves before to help cushion my hand, but they just don’t last long when you’re trying to chop onions
Particularly bad days are when my hand develops itchy blisters and I want to tear my skin off, or it’s dry like the Mojave desert and my cracking skin prevents me from balling my hand into a fist or holding a spoon properly without feeling intense pain. The condition of my skin can determine whether or not it’s even worth it to get into the kitchen.
Depending on the circumstances, it’s very likely that a passerby will hear me say an expletive or twenty. Sometimes a gasp if I end up scratching my hand really bad by accident. I have been known to break the skin if it’s terribly unhappy.
I know this blog is predominantly about cooking and food, but the preparation of food is a big deal. We take for granted one’s ability to do anything. I used to think nothing of my skin and hands for the previous 22 years until this began. It’s thrown itself into the limelight now and become one of my top priorities. It’s on my mind more often than trying out new recipes or tasting a new variety of cheese.
So I’m taking this opportunity to share the announcement that I have started another blog site where I focus on my skin; learning about what makes it angry some days and what I can do to make things better so I can get back to doing the things I love without pain. Feel free to check it out if interested, I’ve listed it below at the end of this post, but I recognize it’s not for everyone. It’s far less lighthearted than this blog here.
But again, for anyone who’s even remotely interested, feel free to click the link below. Thank you for reading.